I’ve been “Pottered”
To those of you who are out there waiting on this weeks episode (Part 2 of the interview)…….I apologise! I’ve been a bit distracted this week.
Yes, like everyone else in the world I too was waiting at the shop at 1 minute past 9am on Saturday to purchase my copy of the latest addition to the “Hogwarts” story. I came home, made myself a cuppa and a “hot water bottle” (it’s really cold down here in Inverloch), lay on the couch and started my adventure…………
I only stopped to “feed the troops” and to sleep, hence I finished Monday afternoon. I must say the further I got into the story the more I struggled. I had one voice in my head trying to ‘hurry me up’ because I wanted to know what was going to happen next and the other voice telling me to ’slow down’ and savour every word, every image. So it was a battle, and I read quickly and I read slowly, but still when I finished the final page and shut the book, I was overwhelmed with a sense of loss….not because of what happened in the story so much as that it was over………………
It made me think about how such little, seemingly unimportant things can have an emotional impact on us and I realised I actually felt really sad not just because I’d finished “The Half Blood Prince” but because now I’d have to wait until J.K.Rowling wrote book 7. Then I felt even sadder, knowing that the next Harry Potter book will be the last one, and I started to imagine how it must feel for her. The past ten years built around these wonderful characters she’d created………the pressure of writing the final installment, knowing that once it was finished, she could no longer dive into ‘Hogwarts” whenever life got ‘tricky’ and escape to a world of fantasy……
Life is so full of endings……….we struggle sometimes to make sense of them and we forget to notice the ‘beginnings’.
In order for something to ‘begin’, something has to end. In order to inhale, we have to exhale. In order to grow wise and experienced……we have to grow older. In order to watch our kids grow up………we have to let go of their dependance on us………………..in order to live we have to die……..and so it goes on.
So I wasn’t just being ’slack’ and avoiding making my show………..I was learning something!
Loss is such a subjective thing and although I know all the theories related to grieving over positive change, it still doesn’t sheild me from feeling sad when something ends………and that’s OK, because I know there’s a great beginning out there somewhere, just waiting to happen!